August 09, 2015

38th Zero

I turned 38 today. I celebrated with thousands of people in a most unusual way.

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March 01, 2015

Jury Duty

I was called up for Jury Duty last week. I had over a month notice so just like the letter instructed, I cleared my schedule for two weeks. Fortunately, the first Monday was a holiday so I didn't actually have to report until Tuesday.

I didn't even get to serve on a Jury. It was odd taking the train every day downtown and then having an hour plus to eat lunch. I got to roam the skyways with the business crowd of Minneapolis. It was a totally different world with delicious grilled cheese sandwhiches.

They only kept me for three days. I was both relieved and disappointing. I wanted to do my civic duty and was curious what it would be like to sit on an actual jury. But I also felt so disconnected from my work (even though I was doing what I could in the waiting area) and from the greater world.

I did get called twice to be in a panel but we never even got through jury selection before they settled. Mostly it involved a lot of sitting around in the hall way. It was still a glimpse into our judicial system that I don't see much of.

November 02, 2014

Riding Around in My New Car

We bought a new car recently. Our previous car is 20 years old (almost old enough to drink!). I’ve known we need a new car for a while. For personal reasons, a more practical car for my partner and I would be automatic, easier to get in and out of, and less likely to suddenly die if you go through a large puddle or sneeze wrong. You know, something reliable and comfortable. A stereo that works all the time, instead of just randomly (we think it turns on when the car gets warm enough but this hypothesis hasn't been tested scientifically) would also be nice.

Even with this knowledge I’ve dragged my feet for a few years on getting a new car. At first it was easy to say we couldn’t afford one but with repairs regularly equaling one or two grand a year - that line stopped holding water.
Honestly, I wasn’t emotionally ready to let go of our old car until now (and even now letting go is a relative term since I am sending it to a retirement home in the country, also known as “my brother’s place”).

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March 19, 2014

drifting vs settling

Since I was twelve I've been on the move, drifting from one experience to the next. I always aimed to run towards stuff, not away. This lead me to Minnesota, a college degree, studying abroad in two regions, countless jobs and loves. My leaps and bounds peaked in my mid-twenties and have been slowing down since then. With ownership of a house - and settling in it with my beloved - I feel the echoes and rings of my former lives and selves settling in around me like leaves falling from a tree. As if, before, all my living situations were temporary - my lease was never more than a year ahead. But now I am committing to at least five years, possibly ten or twenty if the horrors of moving and house buying stay strong in my memory and no external circumstances cause us to uproot.

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September 29, 2013


It has been just over four months since we bought our house and I still get goose bumps thinking about it. I can't believe we are so lucky (and so adult) to actually "own" a house! I want to start writing about this discover process and capture the newness of it - since so many people I speak with have purchased multiple houses and seem to take it for granted. And because our house is very very far from perfect so this will both give me a chance to vent and a chance to celebrate while keeping track to make sure I don't wander too far off reality in one direction.

October 31, 2012

Letting Go Again

I lost an election last night.

I was fortunate enough to be instilled with values of cooperation and community investment as a youth. So when I moved to Minnesota sixteen years ago and discovered the co-ops here I knew I belonged. My working membership quickly turned into a job that sustained me through out my college years and beyond while I struggled to figure out what I want to do with my life. When I left that job to pursue my dream job (which I am still fortunate to have and love) I knew I wasn't ready to let go of my co-op. So I ran for the board of directors and won. Twice. But a third time is not to be.

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October 22, 2012

I want to see you dance again

I was at a wedding celebration tonight, saying my good byes, about to head back to the City, when the band starting playing Harvest Moon. I hope this song always stops me in my tracks and brings tears to my eyes. From the first lyrics:
"Come a little bit closer, hear what I have to say"

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